Busy, busy and busy

Hello, dear people! I have to recognize that I missed you and the WordPress Platform. It’s been such a crazy week that I did not even had time for myself or the blog. How have you been?

I am not finding excuses for not showing up, but my work load got each day more and more heavy and I wanted to get things done. In all this rush I kind of struggled between work and family, wanting to be there in the same time. But you can’t have it all, right?

In the meantime I managed to get a little bit ill, because of the stress and many working hours, not sleeping more than 5-6 hours per night and so on. A flu might follow me on the way, but I believe it’s the fatigue accumulated along the week that is weakening my body.

Yesterday I had to rush to my grandmother feast, as it has been 40 days already since she passed away. It was kind of a roller coaster with emotions and tears, cold and hurrying.

Even if it is Sunday, I am still at work this end of the week. I can’t wait for the prolonged weekend that will arrive in hope that I will get better rest and maybe click a quick refresh button. But I know that it is only Sunday, and tomorrow will bring a new week with new challenges and storms to pass.

In the less time that I have for me while running to places I get doped with sad and depressive songs. But I just don’t feel like listening to joyful music, I don’t have the energy and spirit.

At the end of the day my head is killing me, my all body is aching and I just wish to go home. I am only praying to God to provide me with enough strength so that I can pass these harsh days and wait for the best to come.

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What about today?

I have been so caught up in this crazy routine, one day after another that now when it tends to calm down I am scared. Don’t get me wrong, I enjoy the fact that it has slowed down the rhythm but it’s just that I am not used to it.

So today, besides home chores and work I believe I will just do things in a more rational way, now that I am well rested and have energy. After all, if I cannot do great things, I will do smaller things in a great way.

And live the moment.

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World, stop running

I don’t know if it is just me but sometimes I get the feeling that we are moving too fast. And believe me, I am not a slow person, in contrary I am doing things fast and performing multi-tasking activities all the time.

Always on a hurry, always right on time, always skipping a beat. I so much wish that things could be happening slower, with precision and rightfulness.

So, for this week I have only one request for the Universe: Please, bear with me. And God, help me because I feel like the world is running and I am left behind. Moving fast is not the same as going somewhere with a purpose.

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Unhappy, bitter 24

Yesterday it was my birthday, Yeah I managed to arrive at the age of 24. You might probably guess from the previous posts that it is not a happy birthday, not even in a half.

It was such a special day and somehow did not really enjoyed it fully. There was always in my life a birthday that was not so great but none like this one.

I am still on my way of healing the wounds that the past brought not so long ago. I feel like every day is a new challenge in trying to forget what happened and simply move on. All I do is try to submerge with the daily routine and get busy, so busy that I can forget about myself, sorrow and sadness.

I am lucky though to have good colleagues, family members and great persons around that somehow make me feel good for the moment. It’s always smiles and laughter with them, but deep down the soul is still crying.

I often try to go from work to home by walking, listening to slow music and try to get some alone time before having to again, pretend that nothing happened. The numb pain and cramps still remember me of the storm that I had to overcome.

I went away from partying and having to enjoy myself because I don’t think that I am fully healed and neither my body is. I just want to continue life in my fast rhythm, and slowly but sure move on.

I am not exactly sure what mistake I did in this life to have to go through this sad experience. I just hope that God sees my soul and understands my choices, giving me the opportunity to be forgiven for whatever mistake I did in the past. And also that the baby will be protected by his grace, in heaven.

I received some comments recently related to the fact that I only post in English, and do not provide at least a translation for Romanian native language. To be honest, I don’t like to write about my sorrow in my own language.

I am only writing in here to cleanse my soul, and the persons who will visit my site, will  understand. I am writing for myself first, and then for the persons who like me struggle in this life full of ups and downs.

Now at 24 I have only a small request for God. I don’t want presents, gifts or anything material… . I just wish that until next year, at 25 I could be happy, living a different life and be forgiven for whatever caused to happen this sad reality.

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Inspirational quotes that will raise your motivation on Monday

Hey, guys! Today I thought that it will be a great idea if I share with you some motivational quotes that will raise our moral and build the idea of happiness and greatness!

1. „Happiness is an attitude. We either make ourselves miserable or happy and strong. The amount of work is the same.” – Carlos Castaneda

2. „You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself, in any direction you choose.” – Dr. Seuss

3. „Opportunity is missed by most people because it is dressed in overalls and looks like work.” – Charles Darwin

4. „When writing the story of life, don’t let anyone else hold the pen.” – Harley Davidson

5. „Happiness is not something you postpone for the future; It is something that you design for the present.” – Jim Rohn

6. „When you change your thoughts, you change your world.” – Norman Vincent Peale

7. „People often say that motivation doesn’t last. Well, neither does bathing – that’s why we recommend it daily.” –Zig Ziglar

8. „I didn’t get there by wishing for it or hoping for it, but by working for it.” –Estée Lauder

9. „You can waste your lives drawing lines. Or you can live your life crossing them.” –Shonda Rhimes

10. „Be patient with yourself. Self-growth is tender; it’s holy ground. There’s no greater investment.” –Stephen Covey

11. „Working hard for something we don’t care about is called stressed; working hard for something we love is called passion.” –Simon Sinek

12. „Always do your best. What you plant now, you will harvest later.” –Og Mandino

13. „Move out of your comfort zone. You can only grow if you are willing to feel awkward and uncomfortable when you try something new.” –Brian Tracy

14. „Don’t let the fear of losing be greater than the excitement of winning.” –Robert Kiyosaki

15. „Energy and persistence conquer all things.” –Benjamin Franklin

16. „Perseverance is failing 19 times and succeeding the 20th.” –Julie Andrews

17. „The ladder of success is best climbed by stepping on the rungs of opportunity.” –Ayn Rand

18. „Obstacles are those frightful things you see when you take your eyes off your goal.” –Henry Ford

19. „Determine that the thing can and shall be done, and then we shall find the way.” –Abraham Lincoln

20. „You and you alone are the only person who can live the life that can write the story that you were meant to tell. „Kerry Washington

Let your day be awesome and you amazing. Set goals and be happy! Make the best out of this Monday!

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