Procrastinating

The act of procrastination is defined by the dictionary as the tendency to procrastinate until the power struggle solves it out.

For a long time, I’ve wanted to go back to writing. I kept pushing this impulse and telling myself that it was OK and that I will return to writing shortly. Tomorrow became next weekend, next weekend became the following week, and so on.

Throughout this time, I began writing and deleting, writing and deleting, without ever uploading anything. I’ve been having these dark thoughts and kept telling myself, „What if they don’t like what I say? What if I’m being unfairly criticized for my actions?”

I continued postponing and running away from what I wanted, looking for excuses and telling myself that I needed to accomplish this first, then that. I basically lied to myself and became lost in a pile of excuses running in circles. At the end of the day, it all came back to writing, and I couldn’t get away from it.

I’m not sure how writing helps you, but for me, it always provides a solution to my difficulties and reminds me of my life’s purpose. So, when I take a lengthy vacation from writing and just immerse myself in the daily routine of problems and various duties, I gradually lose interest in what I do and feel that something is missing.

Do whatever you want to do now. There are only so many tomorrows.

Procrastination is a bad habit in our lives. We have a tendency to be fearful and avoid what lies ahead by creating excuses. We have no idea that life has other plans than we had envisioned, and that while we are busy making plans and prioritizing action after action, we are unwillingly being pushed to our next level.

We’re basically piling on more responsibilities, sometimes more than we can do, and most of them are unnecessary. We can’t even accomplish the things we planned to do first because we keep thinking about the one we put off. It’s like two voices singing out of tune, neither sounding good. Instead of fretting about diverse tasks that aren’t working well, start with the one you want to procrastinate on. The one that doesn’t disturb you but leaves you with the lingering longing of „What if?”

It’s okay if it’s taking longer than expected. Success is not obtained overnight. It comes in installments; you get a little bit today, a little bit tomorrow until the whole package is given out. The day you procrastinate, you lose that day’s success.

Remember that someday is not a week of the day, and no matter how hard you try to avoid what is destined to happen, it will still happen one day. It’s time to surrender control and, rather than putting off things, embrace them for what they are and how they make you feel.

Fresh thoughts

2020 brought changes to my life. I remember being so upset and depressed about this that I grabbed my laptop instinctively and decided to write a new article to vent my rage and frustration. I think the universe did not particularly enjoy this because my laptop got overheated and turned off before I could publish the article.

Since that moment, I’ve just been busy with work, house chores, and the Christmas holidays and had little time to submit this. However, I always thought busily how this would improve my life and what I can do to strengthen it, prove myself and take a different direction towards the future.

I’ve had time to reflect that I shouldn’t be concerned with people or circumstances and understand that things happen for a reason. To be furious, to point fingers and talk negatively about others, though they may have created any crisis, does nothing but aggravates matters.

Acknowledging truths and confronting thoughts

Often we choose to make decisions based on appearances, not facts, and as children, we believe that the truth is what we see, and that everyone else has a decent heart like ours, that what is promised will be fulfilled.

In these situations, we usually get a lesson for life when we sincerely trust and believe beyond hesitation. We should never stop fighting for ourselves and make the right choices, first for us and secondly for the ones we love. I wouldn’t say it’s a necessary narcissistic approach, more of a vital and necessary one.

It’s said that life is what happens while making plans. If we’ve learned something, we never need to be comfortable with anybody, not even our own family. We never know when a change of plans might occur, and our entire life will change.

But, to look at the bright side, change is inevitable in life, and we can’t run forever. Breaking out of the daily routine, familiar faces and places may be the right thing for progress, even if that means getting out of our comfort zone.

At the end of the day, we should look into our souls and see if we’re happy with ourselves and what we have realized so far. It’s okay if we’ve made mistakes and have to start it all again. This time we have got experience and a new set of skills that will help us to arise.

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