Pandemic snowy-rainy day

These past few days, I’ve awoken to the sound of raindrops. They just kept falling from the sky, sometimes mixed with snow, sometimes plain, as if the sky was mourning. I can’t recall waking up and walking outside these days because that doesn’t happen very often with working remotely.

I summoned the courage to go out and meet my colleague on Friday. It was snowing heavily, and it was one of those days before the weekend where you just want to crawl into bed and sleep for a few more minutes before chores and work.

Despite her hesitation, I insisted on meeting because she had to offer a gift for my mother. I considered it a good day to go out, hoping for the snow to stop falling from the sky and the weather to change. I got ready quickly, didn’t pay much attention to the weather, and just dressed up plainly, with a spring coat and had light makeup.

It was Friday, and I was just a simple girl in another city forgotten by time. I sprinkled at the door, bid farewell to the cat, and skipped my chores for a few minutes, so I could get out and have some rough polluted air. And meet my friend.

Dashing through the sleet…

Under the curtain, the snow did not look so intense, but outside there was a different story. The small town traffic became mundane by sleet and snow. The cars appeared to be a collection of toys, driven by small children with attitude and no patience or consideration for pedestrians.

I was a little early for the meeting, so I took the opportunity to order two cappuccinos from a new local coffee shop. The waitresses didn’t bother to express their surprise at my spring outfit in the middle of winter, in March.

Needless to say, I was already drenched and had dirt on my shoes. But who cared? I was just another girl who left the house during a pandemic dressed for the coming season, full of hope and good vibes.

I met a friend at the bus station and we drank cappuccinos while walking through the heavy rain and shivering. We swapped our goods and said our goodbyes soon after. I then ran to my station and caught a micro-bus back to my house.

It’s incredible how people can judge and analyze you with a single glance despite not knowing you very well. I was escaping my everyday routine by going out to see a friend on an ugly-snowy-wet day, wearing only a short coat and forgetting to bring my umbrella. What a horrendous crime!

I could almost hear their mutterings: ‘Ahh, poor girl, look at her!’ She’s dressed shabbily and is drenched,’ while I’m listening to my favorite song through my earphones and enjoying a lovely Friday outside.

Instead, I wanted to concentrate on the bus window while leaning against the walls and listening to music. Life can be wonderful if you choose to ignore the curious, judgmental looks of others; it motivates you to attain your purpose and enjoy your time.

Home at last 😊

The bus eventually came to a halt, and I proceeded on my way home. At the traffic light, I noticed an older woman dressed beautifully, wearing colorful eyeshadow and carrying a red umbrella.

I could feel her gaze running through me; it had to be my mascara that decided to bleed and give me panda eyes. But there she was, serious-looking at me, and there I was, laughing and enjoying every drop of rain that was now falling on me.

I felt like a little kid, walking out in the snowy-rainy weather and forgetting to bring my umbrella, not wearing my usual winter coat or office shirt. It’s lovely to break the rules now and then, to get out, meet with a colleague, dance in the rain, and glow.

At the end of the day, snowy rain can be just confetti from the sky. In those days, meet a friend, have a sweet cappuccino, and allow yourself to play in the puddles and get soaking wet.

Pandemic events

Yesterday, I had to attend a baby shower party for one of our friends. It was the first event after a long period of pandemic and concern. One thing I really couldn’t get over was the clumsiness and social awkwardness that exacerbated it all. We were there for a special occasion, but because of all the rules and Pandemic hysteria, I remember that we weren’t able to fully enjoy ourselves or cheer for the birth of that child.

We were 50 guests, with 6 people at the table, spread at a visible distance. I recall light music in the background, curious stares, and a feeling of confusion and disorder. Though the organizers did their hardest to keep us entertained and present at the activity, I could read in the guest’s eyes the fear of attending such an event after a long time of stagnation. The food offered was delicious and I could tell that the people present were nice and warm, although we couldn’t interact that much.

Also, as with any event that took place during the pandemic, we had police coming by to make sure that the activity was in compliance with the laws and that no one was dancing or bending the law. It looked as though we were committing a crime and like we were suspects, albeit following laws. As kids at home in our early years, playing some silly games when our parents came and criticized our lack of sense and morality.

We didn’t shake hands, hug, or kissed on our cheeks, as it was against the rules. We simply fist-bumped and smiled, acknowledging the present situation.

Cruel reality

This pandemic has turned our world upside down, and it’s difficult to tell if we’re ever going to be able to get back to the way it used to be. There’s no perfect day for the baby shower, wedding, or any other occasion with people gathering. It’s just an event that needs to be handled according to tradition, with fewer people and more restrictions.

This Pandemic made us realize the amount of things we take for granted in life, not to mention, life itself. These occurrences are just a small reminder that our life is precious and that we should cherish it with all that we have and honor it, even though it means having to adhere to regulations.

At the end of the day, it’s important to mark the date, be thankful that we’ve been able to see our loved ones, and have a quiet sit down, appreciating the amount of things that we are still left with.

Spending time with your true self

During these pandemic days, it’s easy to become distressed. After work and the daily routine, you may sometimes find yourself getting lost in sad memories. It’s not like you wanted to go there, but it just sank in.

Finding yourself with so much time, and having no one around is very challenging. It lets you wonder about your life decisions and makes you doubt the present and the things you enjoy and care about.

Spending time with yourself can be frightening for someone who is constantly distracted, on the move, and multi-tasking. Moreover, you can stump on old wounds and options that appeared perfect in the past.

Observing them at the moment and noticing the consequences will change the situation, and in the end, only you can have a conclusive solution.

Some journeys in life can only be traveled alone

It’s time to quit the race and start doing something for yourself that makes you happy. It may be anything, even the slightest, purest expression to reward yourself. Make a cup of coffee in the morning, take a stroll around the countryside, enjoy the sunlight, dance in the snow.

Quit looking for appreciation from the outside and give yourself the pat on the back you deserve. Look in the mirror and say thank you for what you have accomplished so far, for the endless hours of effort and commitment, for the sacrifices that nobody knows except you.

Avoid doing everything for others and start worrying about yourself for only 30 minutes a day. Take a break from the daily routine and offer yourself a great experience.

Clear your thoughts from everyday activities, tasks, and problems. Avoid stressing over things that once made you happy and do them with fun, not in a hurry, only because they need to be finished. Don’t agglomerate yourself with more than you can achieve in a day, plan your program for your enjoyment and success.

Don’t let yourself be bored and spend time doing nothing. Set up new targets and ask yourself what is the next challenge you want to conquer and how you can improve. It’s always a place for the better! 🙂

Stay true to yourself and don’t hide your emotions. Learn to embrace and understand yourself, exactly as you are, cast away the masks, and be honest with you and the people around you. Those that are there for you will stay, and those who don’t remain, they weren’t meant to be there in the first place.

Once you understand these basic ideas, you will be able to discover new solutions, and sometimes problems can be worked out by themselves, there is no point in stressing. Learn to let them be, let them go, let God and the universe take care of them.

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Pandemic thoughts

I don’t know what stopped me from writing for such a long time. It’s like a calling that emerges when I feel like it, when I’m hungry to remember what I’ve always loved.

There are days when I want to tear my soul off and burst into writing, and there are days when I want to be silent and fall into loneliness and sorrow. These are the days when writing is less achievable and when I want to get distracted with my present and work for the future.

Unfortunately for me, these days were like this, and to be truthful, because of duty, I did it all. I have forgotten my liking’s and only sunk into work and chores, as if it were ordinary and always so.

One thing I found was that when working from home, time seems to pass very quickly. I typically wake up in the morning, do some house chores and work with brief breaks until 5-6 PM. Then I go on with my chores until late, and when I finish, it’s too late, and I have to rest because I have to get up early for another round of routine tomorrow.

I don’t even know what makes me happy anymore at this point. I feel stuck in a repetitive game that keeps playing the same scenes and actors over and over again. I’m aware that all this is triggered more than ever by the pandemic and the fact that we have to be at home.

Sometimes I want to go back to the old every day, to enjoy the winter temperature, to feel my skin shivering, to see my colleagues and to participate in senseless dialogues, to laugh and have a nice time together without the dumb thought of an unknown virus, without barriers or fears.

I get to glance through the apartment window every day, and to be honest, it doesn’t feel the same way. I feel like a lot of things are missing, and I feel lonely, even though people are around me. I’m tired of Korean dramas and TV shows, I’ve even started reading, but I don’t feel like I can be there entirely.

It’s an emotional roller coaster, that you, dear reader, may or may not understand. If you know me well, you know that I usually am a happy, optimistic person with high future aspirations who is always encouraging people to have faith and confidence in tomorrow. The funny thing is, I don’t know if I have the strength to feel the same way and hide behind a happy mask.

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This year can give a rough and depressing time for us all, and while it isn’t easy, we need to be positive and have the courage to move forward, even though it feels like an immense weight that causes us and our loved one’s agony and sorrow.

It’s also important to be grateful for what we have, for the people that love and support us, for a home, a good job, and even a meal. There are people out there that don’t have these gifts that seem basic to us.

At the end of the day, as Thomas Merton said, we do not need to know precisely what is happening, or exactly where it is all going. What we need is to recognize the possibilities and challenges offered by the present moment and to embrace them with courage, faith, and hope.

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Coronavirus – Update

Hello, dear readers! Today I wanted to create a new post for the novel Coronavirus situation worldwide.

Coronavirus situation at the moment Worldwide

If we were to take a look at the situation worldwide, it is not getting better. Take, for example, Italy, a country situated in Europe and very close to the country I reside in, Romania. It feels like yesterday the Covid 19 virus appeared and now northern Italy is in lockdown as the country has now recorded 5,883 cases and 233 deaths.

According to BBC the persons isolated in quarantine in Italy at the moment arrive at the number of 16 million. France now has a total of 949 cases, including a member of the French Parliament. In Spain, about 470 people have the virus, and fatalities reached 10 on Saturday.

The smallest E.U. nation, Malta, reported its first confirmed case on Saturday: a 12-year-old girl recently returned from a vacation in northern Italy. Her condition was described as good.

On Sunday Bulgaria confirmed four coronavirus cases out of 70 people tested, being the first confirmed cases in the country. Germany has more than 800 confirmed Coronavirus cases.

The number of confirmed cases of Coronavirus arrived at the number 164 in the UK on Friday, with 20,338 people tested. There are currently 188 confirmed cases of infection in the Netherlands.

Greece said on Saturday it had 21 new coronavirus cases, bringing the total in the country to 66. In Switzerland, the total of infections now confirmed to be more than 260. In Poland, there are 6 persons infected with the virus, while in Austria stand 32 cases.

Belgium reaches 109 confirmed cases, and in Romania, the total number of confirmed cases arrive at 13. Iran has confirmed almost 6,000 coronavirus infections and 145 deaths.

In the United States, 444 cases of the novel coronavirus have been confirmed, according to the US Centers for Disease Control and Prevention, and state and local governments, and 19 people have died.

The epicenter of the cases in New York continued to be just north of the city, in Westchester County, where the total reached 70. Washington State raised its count of cases to more than 100 on Saturday and added two more deaths, bringing the state’s toll to 16 and the nation’s to 19.

Egypt’s health minister announced 33 new infections on a quarantined Nile cruise boat on Sunday, including foreign tourists and Egyptian crew members, bringing to 45 the number onboard who have tested positive.

On Sunday, South Korea announced 367 new infections, bringing the country’s total to 7,134, according to the South Korean Centers for Disease Control and Prevention, and 50 deaths.

The total number of worldwide cases stands at more than 105,000, with 3,599 deaths. China’s National Health Commission reported 27 new deaths from the coronavirus on Sunday and 99 new infections.

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Personal conclusions

I concluded that recently I did not pay too much attention to what is happening and treated the situation with ignorance.

Recently I even received a flyer with information about this virus and simply smiled at it, knowing that is impossible for the virus to get anywhere near to my family, loved ones and co-workers.

When somebody coughs at work, have a fever or feels dizzy we tend to make jokes about it and move on. We know that we are young it is very unlikely for any of us to be affected by this strange virus and if we get the flu or get a respiratory disease we have the courage and belief that it will go away within a few days.

Usually, the situation starts like, this (at least for me): I start feeling dizzy, lack the energy, have a fever, my head hurts, my tonsils are swollen and begin to cough. I get ahead of the iconic flu with over the shelf medicines like Coldrex, Theraflu, Paracetamol, vitamin C and make sure to stay hydrated by drinking a lot of tea, eating fresh fruits and soups, exercise and stay away of other infected persons.

But you see, at times is almost impossible to stay away forever. I do have to get to work, have a busy schedule often and get in touch with various persons every day. I have to face agglomeration in the bus station, on the way to work as the location is situated near a commercial center.

I believe that this winter I managed to get the flu for at least 6 times. And it’s not that the immune system is not strong enough, God I try to stay as healthy as I can. But then a co-worker gets sick, a family member and even strangers that we come in contact with. The flu virus spreads so fast that it is even hard for the system to fight with it at times.

If you do want to stay protected and fight with the disease it’s almost hard at times. I remembered that I had to go to a pharmacy last week to buy some medicine prescriptions that the doctor recommended for overall health. Before I arrived at the counter a pharmacist was yelling at me and informing me that she does not have any masks left.

I did not intend to buy any masks but what if I had the flu and had to get one? What if there were persons that needed one?

I hate the huge amount of misinformation and intimidation that healthy persons get at times. Stop buying masks if you don’t need them, people, stop the terrible shopping spree in the malls for cans of food and supplies. You are not the only ones scared of this virus but we need to calm down and get properly informed.

Yes, the Coronavirus is spreading as the day goes by and yes it is a pandemic but that does not mean that we will run over the night of supplies and food, authorities promised that it will not arrive in that stage. Getting panicked, hiding around the house and being scared is not the answer.

All we do by doing these things is simply letting the negative outcomes embrace us and allowing bad things to happen. If we stay protected, take care of our immune systems and move on with our lives with courage and perseverance we will overcome the disease.

We are not cowards, we are strong human beings that can fight the unexpected events that sometimes take place in our lives. Hiding, buying huge amounts of supply that will probably be used its never the answer.

As Josh Sipp Said: “You either get bitter or you get better. It’s that simple. You either take what has been dealt with you and allow it to make you a better person, or you allow it to tear you down. The choice does not belong to fate, it belongs to you.”

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