Lately, I have been thinking about a lot of things. I got to know about the law of attraction and how we can change our present and future for the better. I have listened to audiobooks and started reflecting on my life.
To be honest with you, dear readers, I did not enjoy what I have found out in me. During the past years, I got to change so much that I could not even recognize myself. I managed to almost let only the negative things of my life affect me and my present without even being considerate about it
I invited bad things to happen only because I was thinking of negative outcomes and did not appreciate the good things that happened at the moment at their own value. Seeing only the bad things, the sad feelings and simply struggling myself with the negative moments did not make me feel any better.
In time I managed to be so self-centered and selfish living in my own bubble, taking everyone for granted. I was young and maybe mistakes were meant to happen at that time, but sometimes being too ecstatic and inadvertently is not the answer.
Speaking too much without even knowing the answer, hovering around the stuff that was not meant to be and dreaming about a future that does not belong to me, I manage to somehow do all of these things without even feeling any guilt or resentment.
Thinking too much with the brain without letting the heart involved sometimes can cause problems. It can blind you from making the correct choices and taking the right decisions in life.
The funny thing is that I am a harsh judge of myself, I always was and maybe I will always be. As hesitant as I can be in life sometimes I manage to take things by their appearance and not by the root, never trying to even understand why it happened in the first place.
Now that I managed to identify these flaws of mine makes me be more kind to myself and understanding, trying the best to not repeat the same mistakes in the future. Getting to know myself fully, accepting the defects and forgiving me for what I have done is just the beginning.
The fact that I have come to peace with myself and accepting me for who I am is already a step forward and I believe now that I managed to get out of the comfort zone the change is inevitable. The change for the better.
I believe that good things will happen in the future for me and that I am the responsible person for making those things happen. Along with God by my side, I will change into a better person and make a difference.
I am sure that in time I will manage to find a way to resume things to the way they used to be before and I will set my soul free, along with the one I have chosen. The answer will arrive at the right time and the healing process will start.
I trust God with this mission and I know that I am going to accomplish it.
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