Life questions

Sometimes I wonder about this life. Why do we make the choices that we make at a specific moment, why do we chose to say yes instead of no, and why are we cowards in front of life’s biggest challenges.

If you were me, you would probably think because that was the right choice at that moment, that you could not deliver more and you had to take that one offer and move on.

Life is not easy, it’s complicated, and as much as we look at it, trying to find it’s sense we are tangled in thick threads. There is no right answer and no correct path to follow until the end.

Most of the time we are just guided by the wind and go as it blows. Or by experiences, by thinking that we know the answer, but in reality, we know nothing. It’s frustrating.

How do we choose the right path for our life? How do we recognize a suitable job for us? How do we even know what persons should we choose for our life journey?

The truth is, we don’t know. We move in life blindfolded, thinking that we know everything. Choosing the path for our lives, the best job, and the most amazing people that we could have thought of.

Ironically, most of us end up injured at the half of our journey. The path that we have chosen is not exactly our best fit, the job doesn’t correspond to our desires, and the people disappoint.

It’s that moment when we start to think about what we have done wrong, and why is the certainty that harsh. Why every single thing that looked perfect at the beginning is now broken and does not have the same amount of interest?

Is it us or the world changed overnight? Has the path changed? Why aren’t those people bearing the same interest as they did in the first place? Why that job had to switch over 90 degrees?

Questions, questions, that’s all that we have. The answers are subjective and can change by the minute. At the end of the day, the important thing is to be honest with our decisions because we are going to live with those until the end.

Let’s look in the mirror and admit to ourselves what we desired and why we arrived here in the first place. It’s essential to remember the basics and be honest with our true self, we can’t fight a mountain of worries and impossible future forever.

What we see in our hearts is what we get, simple as that. The heart knows no lies, no changes of attitude, it’s pure. So, next time when we make a decision, disregard the opinion of the others and ask ourselves what we want.

So, dear reader, next time, stop looking outside for answers and look within. Be aware that life changes, things change, friends leave. Life does not stop for anybody and it won’t do it for us because we think we had the right answers.

Cashew nuts

Hello, dear readers! Today’s post is going to be about Cashew nuts. I grew fond of them not a long time ago, hence, today I wanted to share with you more information about Cashew nuts and why are they so delicious and yet healthy.

What is the cashew nut?

The cashew tree (Anacardium occidentale) is a tropical evergreen tree that produces the cashew seed and the cashew apple. The tree can grow as high as 14 m (46 ft), but the dwarf cashew, growing up to 6 m (20 ft), has proven more profitable, with earlier maturity and greater yields.

The cashew seed is often considered a nut in the culinary sense; this cashew nut is eaten on its own, used in recipes, or processed into cashew cheese or cashew butter. Like the tree, the nut is often simply called a cashew.

Beneficial effects of the Cashew nuts

Heart benefits

The National Centre for Biotechnology Information (NCBI) in its case study shows that nuts are likely to be beneficial for health, keeping away various ailments, such as heart diseaseCashews help lower LDL (bad cholesterol levels) and increase the carrying capacity for HDL (good cholesterol level). HDL is responsible to absorb the cholesterol from the heart and take it to the liver where it can be broken down.

The study published in the New England Journal of Medicine (NEJM) stated that nutrients in nuts, such as unsaturated fatty acids, protein, fiber, vitamins, minerals, and antioxidants may confer heart-protective, anti-carcinogenic and anti-inflammatory properties.

Cashew nuts are a rich source of monounsaturated fats (MUFA) that slow the release of blood into the bloodstream. The anti-diabetic properties of cashews work thanks to hydro-ethanolic substances in the form of anarcadic acid, which controls the spread of glucose in the body. Sufficient cashew intake also helps prevent arterial hypertension (blood pressure greater than 140/90).

Prevention of blood disease

Cashew nuts are rich in copper, which plays an important role in the elimination of free radicals from the body. Copper deficiency can lead to iron deficiencies, in my case, anemia.

Protector for the eye

Cashews contain a rich antioxidant pigment named Zea Xanthin. This pigment is directly absorbed by our retina, says nutritionist Anju Sood. This then forms a protective layer over our retina which prevents the harmful UV rays. 

Dr. Anshul Jaibahrat Bhatnagar says small quantities of Zea Xanthin help prevent age-related macular degeneration in the elderly and hence helps maintain eye health.

Improves the skin

Cashew nut oil is rich in selenium, zinc, magnesium, iron, and phosphorous. Also, they are great sources of phytochemicals, proteins, and antioxidants. The high percentage of selenium in cashews is not only good for your skin but it helps to prevent cancer as well.

Enriches the hair follicle

The consumption of cashews as well as the application of cashew oil on your scalp ensures healthy hair. “Copper present in cashew nut oil helps in the production of skin and hair pigment called melanin,” says nutritionist Gargi Sharma. Cashew enhances hair color and will provide a silky-smooth texture due to the presence of linoleic and oleic acids.

Healthy gums

Eating cashew nuts will maintain the gums and teeth healthy, as cashews have a positive effect for the oral cavity. The chewing causes excessive saliva production which neutralizes streptococcal bacteria in the mouth.

Prevents headaches

Besides promoting a healthy brain function, cashews also contain phytosterols that reduce the duration of headaches.

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Quotes for a broken heart and moving on

Hello, dear readers! Today’s post is going to be about a broken heart and moving on in life. I have chosen for you a list of quotes that may enlighten your mind and help you in the journey of life. Enjoy!

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Quotes for a broken heart and moving on

“Yes, I understand why things had to happen this way. I understand his reason for causing me pain. But mere understanding does not chase away the hurt. It does not call upon the sun when dark clouds have loomed over me. Let the rain come then if it must come! And let it wash away the dust that hurt my eyes!“
Jocelyn Soriano

“No matter how bad your heart is broken, the world doesn’t stop for your grief.“
Faraaz Kazi

“It is only with true love and compassion that we can begin to mend what is broken in the world. It is these two blessed things that can begin to heal all broken hearts.“
Steve Maraboli

“Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option.“
Mark Twain

“There comes a time in your life when you have to choose to turn the page, write another book or simply close it.“
Shannon L. Alder

“Every time your heart is broken, a doorway cracks open to a world full of new beginnings, new opportunities.“
Patti Roberts

“Listen to God with a broken heart. He is not only the doctor who mends it but also the father who wipes away the tears.“
Criss Jami

“Sometimes it takes a heartbreak to shake us awake and help us see we are worth so much more than we’re settling for.“
Mandy Hale

“I wish I were a little girl again because skinned knees are easier to fix than a broken heart.”
Julia Roberts

“You find out what you are made of when you have a broken heart. If it happens early and often, all the better.” Isabel Gillies

“If people refuse to look at you in a new light and they can only see you for what you were, only see you for the mistakes you’ve made, if they don’t realize that you are not your mistakes, then they have to go.” Steve Maraboli

“You can close your eyes to things you don’t want to see, but you can’t close your heart to things you don’t want to feel. ” Johnny Depp

“A wounded deer leaps highest. ” Emily Dickinson

“Never regret yesterday. Life is in you today, and you make your tomorrow.” L. Ron Hubbard

“You’re gonna catch a cold from the ice inside your soul.” Christina Perri

“It is a curious sensation: the sort of pain that goes mercifully beyond our powers of feeling. When your heart is broken, your boats are burned: nothing matters anymore. It is the end of happiness and the beginning of peace. ” George Bernard Shaw

“Everyone in life is going to hurt you, you just have to figure out which people are worth the pain. ” Bob Marley

“Don’t throw away your time dreaming of someone that doesn’t want you. No one is that amazing, certainly not the one who would pass you up.” Donna Lynn Hope

“Sometimes a little heartbreak is a lesson, and the best thing to do is just learn the lesson. ” Jon Voight

“If you’re really listening, if you’re awake to the poignant beauty of the world, your heart breaks regularly. In fact, your heart is made to break; its purpose is to burst open again and again so that it can hold evermore wonders. ” Andrew Harvey

“The prettiest smiles hide the deepest secrets. The prettiest eyes have cried the most tears. And the kindest hearts have felt the most pain. “

“Our hearts will be broken a thousand times over, but who is to say that our hearts were ever perfect to begin with? Maybe they can withstand a few cracks. After all, the way that we love is not perfect. We love things to such an incomprehensible depth that these things become worn in. Wouldn’t the most beautiful thing in the world be a heart that has been through all of the wear and tear, as worn in as your favorite sweater that both keeps you warm and grants you a smile in return? That’s the kind of heart that I want. Bruises make for beautiful colors after all. “ Elizabeth Brooks

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Thought of the day 6#

Do you know those days? When you smile and joke with those around you, but inside is something of an endless sadness?

Sometimes I can not explain it. I feel my saturated and disappointed heart, I want something today, but I do not know why I have the feeling that it does not belong to me; or at least it’s mine though it should not be.

I long after smiles, emotions and affection, but I do not understand why … that someone should be my unlimited and infinite, there are moments, events spent together and years of coexistence.

I give everything I have, I give my heart on this person’s tray and I want it next to me 24 out of 24. For me time has not gone, it has flourished, added moments and emotions, feelings and memories.

Only if that person next to me would think the same … I see him every day, staring at a certain „fairy”, like looking for another one. Initially, I did not notice it, drawing attention to other things, looking for a thread of hope and trust, believing in what once united us.

Irrelevant, uninteresting. He is attentive elsewhere, distracted. And me? I’m lost somewhere in the middle, I just require little attention and a little affection, just a little involvement.

I’m not like him, I’m not looking for other princes, I’ve already found the king. It’s just he’s embarrassed, impregnated in strangers, black or blonde ones, one seemingly more captivating than another.

Today I chose to leave the guard down, not to get involved. I’ve come to think of what it would be if …. I saw independence, with 2 jobs, more attentive to one’s own person and personal development.

I do not know why, but when they adopt this „position” they draw people to me. Curious, intriguing and conquering people try to hurt me with their personality, try to be close to me.

And me? I’m no longer fascinated by this kind of thing. My heart is fragile and mature, she received her love of the outside, now she wants family and involvement. My heart wants him, her king …. Let’s hope, however, that it will come back from this whirlwind of youth and realize what’s next to it until it’s too late.

Dragostea ce n-a fost sa fie…

Zilele trecute cercetand internetul – plin de lucruri variate, am descoperit un fir al unei povesti ce mi s-a parut interesante si triste si am decis sa il dezvolt. Sper sa va placa  !

,,Oamenii ce vor citi aceasta poveste vor crede ca am gresit si inteleg acest lucru. Totusi,asta nu m-a oprit sa ma indragostesc de unul dintre studentii mei.

Aveam 25 de ani cand am inceput sa predau in liceu. Predam limba ucraineana. Era primul meu an de profesie, in liceu si eram foarte stresata. Cand am aplicat pentru job mi-au spus ca eram prea tanara si neexperimentata. Oricum ei aveau mare nevoie de un profesor si m-au angajat. In prima zi un grup de baieti au intrat in clasa razand galagios batand palmele (hi5). Le-am spus de cateva ori sa se aseze in timp ce asteptam in fata clasei ca toti sa ajunga si sa se aseze in banci. Cand am repetat a treia oara unul dintre baieti m-a fixat cu privirea si continua sa ma priveasca. Fata sa era plina de surprindere. Apoi a privit la ceilalti baieti si le-a spus sa se aseze. M-am simtit putin cam jenata de modul in care ma privea. Mai tarziu am aflat ca numele sau era Landon. El era un student mai vechi ce trebuia sa participe la un curs de limba straina pentru a absolvi. Landon era unul dintre baietii din echipa de inot si era foarte frumos. Fetele „roiau” in jurul lui. In prima saptamana de scoala am simtit ca il tratez diferit. Era foarte serios la ore si chiar daca fetele din clasa il provocau el nu le dadea atentie si acest lucru m-a uimit.

Timpul a trecut rapid si in curand se sfarseau 2 luni de predat. Intr-o zi a lipsit la un test si a trebuit sa ii dau un test de completare. I l-am dat dupa ore. A stat tacut in banca si a rezolvat testul in 15 minute dupa care s-a oprit si ma privea. L-am intrebat daca s-a intamplat ceva si raspunsul lui m-a socat.

,,Domnisoara S,nu te deranjeaza felul in care acei baieti iti vorbesc?”. Pentru un minut nu am stiut ce sa raspund. Apoi am spus:

,,In ce fel?”

,,Glumele lor.”

Baietii din clasa mereu glumeau cu mine spunandu-mi ca sunt prea tanara pentru a fi o profesoara. Eu nu ma consider frumoasa dar trebuie sa recunosc ca sunt destul de atractiva si foarte diferita de ceilalti profesori. Nu numai ca eram cea mai tanara dar ma imbracam si diferit de asemenea, elegant. Am raspuns spunand:

,,Nu au vorbit serios si nu m-a afectat. Stiu ca se prosteau doar.”

Am continuat sa vorbim pentru o vreme pana mi-am amintit ca el trebuia sa isi termine testul si am spus:

,,Termina-ti testul, se face tarziu.”

Landon a zambit si a spus : ,,Am terminat!”

,,Serios?”Am raspuns eu surprinsa. A luat nota maxima pe acel test.

Dupa acea zi Landon a inceput sa stea dupa ore pentru ajutor in plus, afirmand ca are nevoie de mai multa pregatire. Ramanea ultimul in clasa si plecam impreuna la locul de parcare. Vorbeam despre multe lucruri si adesea glumeam. Dupa acea zi prietenii din clasa lui nu au mai glumit cu mine asa mult.

A trecut ceva timp si intr-o zi primesc un apel de la birou. Mi-au spus ca au ceva pentru mine si m-au rugat sa trimit un student sau doi sa ridice acel ceva .Am spus da si am trimis un baiat si o fata. Fata s-a intors cateva minute mai tarziu zambindu-mi si mi-a spus sa-mi inchid ochii. Am protestat o vreme. Am auzit un zgomotos : „Aduceti inauntru!” si ,,Deschide ochii!” si de asemenea „Waaw,waaw…”.

Cand mi-am deschis ochii am zarit un buchet urias de trandafiri. La acel moment am crezut ca sunt probabil 50 de trandafiri. Dar am aflat mai tarziu ca erau doar 26, pentru ca era aniversarea mea de 26 de ani. Era un plic in varful acesteia si cand l-am deschis am recunoscut scrisul lui Landon de indata. Am rosit si cand m-am uitat la  el zambea si mi-a facut cu ochiul.

A ramas dupa ore si mi-a urat :

,,La multi ani domnisoara S!”.Am rosit din nou si i-am spus:,,De ce ai facut asta?”

,,Pentru ca e ziua ta.”A vrut sa plece inspre usa si am intrebat:,,De ce la scoala?”

El s-a intors, avea un zambet larg pe fata si mi-a raspus:,,Am vrut sa asigur restul baietilor ca tu deja ai pe cineva in viata ta.”Dupa asta a plecat din clasa.

Timpul se scurgea cu repeziciune. El continua sa vina la mine dupa ore si vorbeam. Stiam ca gresesc dar nu ma puteam opri. Cand i-am spus sa nu mai vina pentru ca nu mai avea nevoie de ajutor suplimentar mi-a spus: ,,Dar am nevoie de tine!”

Cumva a reusit sa faca rost de numarul meu de telefon si a inceput sa-mi trimita mesaje. Imi trimitea mesaje in clasa unde se aflau si ceilalti studenti. Odata,am izbucnit in ras cand mi-a trimis ceva amuzant. Studentii m-au privit nauciti.

In curand m-a invitat la o intalnire si am spus da. Am mers in afara orasului la ski si atunci m-a sarutat prima data. Din pacate fericirea nu a durat mult.

Peste putin timp studentii au inceput sa ne barfeasca. Un baiat a spus ca l-am tratat pe Landon diferit. Multe zvonuri au inceput sa zboare prin campus. Ne-a fost foarte greu si pana la urma am mers la directoare si i-am povestit totul. Ea mi-a raspuns:,,De asta m-am temut de la inceput. Nu am vrut sa te angajez din cauza experientei ci din cauza faptului ca esti atat de tanara.”A urmat prin  a spune ca este o modalitate de rezolvare.

Landon a fost schimbat de la orele mele. Intreaga scoala si prietenii sai au inceput sa ma priveasca ciudat. El incerca sa imi vorbeasca. A creat scene ce au cauzat aparitia altor zvonuri. Nu stiam ce sa fac. Am participat la o sedinta recenta la scoala si inainte de a se tine sedinta mi-am spus mie insumi ca voi demisiona. Apoi le-am spus-o si lor chiar daca nu era bine sa plec de la scoala fara un inlocuitor,aceasta era cea mai buna alegere.

Ei au fost multumiti de demisia mea si m-au asigurat multumiti ca nu va fi nici o problema si ca vor gasi imediat pe cineva sa ma inlocuiasca. M-am asteptat la un raspuns de genul. Cativa colegi aveau lacrimi in ochi dar si eu plangeam. Am parasit scoala de indata. Am avut o buna recomandare de la scoala, dar directoarea m-a sfatuit ca o prietena sa incep sa predau la scoala de mijloc – gimnaziul, ca mai apoi sa progresez la celelalte nivele. I-am zambit pur si simplu. M-a imbratisat si a inceput sa planga. Imi spunea ca viata nu e corecta.

In doua saptamani m-am mutat. Landon a incercat sa ma contacteze. Mi-a lasat mesaje si am simtit ca mor cand le stergeam. Nu voiam sa fiu influentata de ele si am refuzat sa ma intalnesc cu el. Dupa ce am plecat, proprietarul casei unde am locuit m-a sunat si mi-a spus ca era o scrisoare in casuta postala pentru mine. I-am dat noua mea adresa si am primit scrisoarea in 3 zile. Era o scrisoare de la Landon. Mainile imi tremurau, dar am continuat sa o deschid si sa o citesc. A scris ca ma iubeste si ca nu va mai iubi niciodata alta persoana cat m-a iubit pe mine, pentru ca inima sa e cu mine pentru totdeauna. Si-a cerut scuze pentru ca mi-a creat probleme si mi-a trimis o poza cu noi zambind in momentele fericite. Am plans zile intregi. Mi-am luat vacanta restul anului si am inceput sa lucrez anul viitor ca o profesoara in gimnaziu.

Anii au trecut. Nu m-am putut intalni cu alt baiat chiar daca erau multi interesati. Am inceput sa devin o persoana rece.

Patru ani au trecut si un prieten vechi de la scoala lui Landon se pregatea sa se casatoreasca. Mi-a cerut sa ma reintorc si sa-i fiu domnisoara de onoare. M-a speriat gandul de a-l reintalni. Totusi,am mers. Cumparam rochiile pentru nunta cand o tanara de 20 de ani ne-a intrebat daca avem nevoie de ajutor. Am privit-o mai atenta si am recunoscut-o. Era una dintre fostele mele eleve. Incercam sa-mi amintesc numele ei in timp ce ma uitam la ea, si ea s-a apropiat spunandu-mi:,,Domnisoara S.?”

Am inceput sa vorbim despre viata ei si eu i-am povestit cateva ceva despre mine. Conversatia s-a oprit dintr-o data si ea m-a intrebat:,,Nu vrei sa stii despre Landon?”Am privit-o si ea a continuat.

,,Dupa ce a fost schimbat de la ora dvs, era foarte stresat si voia sa iti vorbeasca si ne tot ruga sa iti trimitem scrisori. Totusi,au trecut decat doua zile si urmatorul lucru aflat e ca vrei sa pleci. El a fugit catre clasa ta auzind ca esti la scoala si nu te-a gasit, apoi a plecat la birou dupa tine, lucru care a fost in van. Avea o fata atat de trista in timp ce te cauta, nu cred ca voi uita vreodata acea privire… . Dupa aceasta nu a mai mers la ore. Intr-o zi, cativa baieti au inceput sa vorbeasca urat despre tine. A sarit pe ei si i-a batut foarte rau. Singurul lucru ce l-a salvat au fost notele bune de la ore. Am absolvit si am auzit ca s-a inrolat in armata. In timpul verii inainte de a se inrola petrecea foarte mult si a devenit obraznic. A devenit foarte implicat in armata si aproape isi facea o cariera. Cu jumatate de an in urma am aflat ca a fost omorat in Iraq. Ceremonia de ramas bun a fost uriasa si toata lumea plangea si spunea ca le vine greu sa creada ca s-a dus. Cateva persoane vorbeau despre voi. Unul dintre prietenii sai a spus ca Landon a avut dreptate cand a spus ca tu ai fost prima si ultima sa iubire.’’

Fata plangea cand si-a terminat povestea. Lacrimile au inceput a curge pe obrajii mei incontrolabil. Am plans zile intregi si am fost deprimata saptamani. Prietenul meu si-a gasit o alta domnisoara de onoare si m-a sustinut mult.

Doi ani au trecut de cand am intalnit acea fata. Stau singura acum cu 26 de trandafiri si o fotografie de-a lui Landon cu mine. Am simtit nevoia sa plang dar nu mai am lacrimi. Am multe regrete acum pentru ca nu am luptat pentru dragostea mea, ca nu am protejat-o, ca nu am sustinut-o cum a incercat Landon. Pur si simplu am renuntat la el si dragostea noastra. Lacrimile incep a curge necontenit pe obrajii mei pentru ca stiu ca nu voi mai iubi niciodata precum l-am iubit pe el.”