A new beginning

Hello, my dear readers and fellow bloggers! Today is Monday again, but this time it’s like I don’t feel the burden so hard on my chest. I have good feelings, feel good and I am positive. 🌞

I’ve been enjoying a week full of rest and now it is time to go back to work, still from home. I have to admit I missed the job and going back out there, helping people with IT issues. The quarantine is not lifted yet, will probably be on 15 may, as the authorities announced.

I miss my family members, the places where I grow up, I also miss the workplace, my colleagues, and the warm atmosphere. I can’t wait to return back at home and at the office and meet with everyone.

I do understand that measures are to be taken and that we need to be careful, stay protected, wear masks, and keep the distance. Even if the quarantine will be lifted the risk is still present, so the best for us is to pay attention to details and be responsible.

Nevertheless, I need to thank God for keeping us safe and healthy, even if at times we struggled and maybe did not always felt healthful and strong, things got better now. I am thankful that we have a job, a place where to stay and a new week is ahead of us.

Sometimes the best thing you can do is not think, not wonder, not imagine, not obsess. Just breathe, and have faith that everything will work out for the best. 

Few things in the world are more powerful than a positive push. A smile. A world of optimism and hope. A ‘you can do it’ when things are tough. Richard M. DeVos

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Wednesday check-up and the law of attraction

In all of this storm with many worries, work-related tasks and home duties as you might know from my latest posts I managed to take a few minutes a day to listen to some motivational speakings and to discover more about the law of attraction.

During this time with many tasks and activities, I managed to think, even if I had the flashbacks about what could wrong, about what could go right and how this could change my life.

I started with tiny steps, and had small requests for myself, like: Today I am not going to miss the bus and save some money (because being late meant I had to take a cab). In the beginning, it was hard because I always had to do some „important” tasks before going to work.

Realizing exactly that what I am doing was not right I started planning and shortened the list of my tasks during the workdays. Being focused on the time spent and planning things to happen in my way and my benefit things started to work better and I could see an improvement.

If today I created my „to do” list, and performed everything planned in time at home, managed to arrive at work and not be late then the law of attraction worked in my way because I wanted to. Yes, I had to push myself and stop procrastinating, yes I had in mind and repeated to myself the fact that I have control over what’s happening.

I came to realize that in some days if I have trained my mind and remembered myself previously that I won’t be late at work and had faith that I will arrive in time then the Universe granted me that thing right away. For example, if I had arrived at the station at 15:10 and I had to be at work at 15:30, then a bus will arrive in front of me within those intermediate 10 minutes and take me to work.

Another thing that has had worked for me today was the doctor check-up. Even if I was nervous and afraid about what could happen, have been worried and concerned about my health I kept in mind that things will go well. My body was shaking and I felt so down and had so many questions in mind but deep down I knew that things will go right.

I trained my mind to be confident and considerate, taking things as they are and accept them but with a positive outcome taking the good things only. So I said to myself: Kate, today might be OK or might be bad, but you only have the answer to what will be because you will have the power to change what is happening.

Staying in the waiting room and expected for my turn I even conclude that I need to go through good and bad in this life. There is no way we can skip the challenges and the pain, and going through it would make me a better person, the one I am today.

With all the ups and downs, at the end of the check-up, the doctor looked me in the eyes and confirmed that everything is OK and that I am healthy. I was so happy at that moment that I could feel like a hard stone was raising from my heart and that I was free.

That hard stone was not necessarily the result of my previous experiences but the negative thinking that took place in my brain. Adding every single day a new stone to the burden deep down in the suffering heart, I simply made my life hard. Thinking negative and getting myself into depression was not a clever choice.

Having to go through hardships in life changes you and your way of thinking, makes you learn new amazing things that could not be learned while being happy and in your comfort zone. Yes, it’s painful and yes tears and letting go might be involved but that is the only way you get to mature and to transform yourself.

At the end of the day, I am thankful to God for bringing me in this very moment while being healthy at home, writing to you, dear readers about the benefits of believing in the law of attraction, having faith in God and being positive.

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Letter to the subconscious

Why are you afraid, dear subconscious? Why are you so scared to be yourself, to believe in yourself, to thrive? Do you not know that you hold the supreme power and that without you I am nothing? Why do you always tend towards negativism and do not see the positive side?

I tried these days to do an exercise and it surprised me, but not for good. I could never believe that inside you can be so dark, so scared of change and so focused on being and becoming nothing.

Why do you want everything to happen as the wind welcomes and to let yourself worn like a dry leaf from the cold wind? Do you not know that you hold the power and that together we can be unbeatable?

But you, subconscious are different from me at present. You are a shy and hidden character who does not trust and shudder at the first threat from outside, if you could you would take me into nothingness and you would never return.

Do you not know that always, together we have achieved things that only seemed real in a dream? Do you remember when we used to float over reality and embrace the present as a gift from God?

To be honest, I don’t even know when you’ve changed me so much, dear subconscious. You have become a side of mine so dark and closed that sometimes it is difficult for me to identify you, it is difficult for me to listen to you in solitude.

It is said that we attract what we think and that you, subconscious, have infinite power in attracting things to become reality. Why do you want to bring me only sadness and negative things? Why do you want to torment us in the near future?

Yes, I made mistakes and yes God knows how much I have struggled so far to get here. Some struggles have been given by God, some we have created by taking our lives in our hands.

Sometimes the true struggles must be waged by God, not by us. And we, dear subconscious, have much to learn from this parable.

Let’s stop fighting windmills and ask for guidance from Him. Come to realize that we are not alone in this cold world and that we have unlimited help, all we have to do is believe.

The things that are given to us by God to happen, will happen to us, the possible ones will materialize in time depending on what we attract to happen. Let’s not dream about impossible things because in time, we can hurt the soul of other people in our selfishness and absurd desire, for the moment.

Today I propose to make a pact, dear subconscious. Let’s choose the right path for us, eliminate negativism and gloomy thoughts, look to the future with hope and confidence.

Let us propose realistic or even unrealistic ideals but with the aim of never taking for granted or thinking selfishly about the people given by God at that time. To have a pure soul, and to think with the heart when we make decisions that could affect our life for a long term.

Because only together we can make a difference and change our life and future in just one second. Let’s be a team again and work together like we never did!

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Another soul has passed away…

In this short life we ​​meet special people, wonderful people who bring an extra color and cheerfulness, which refreshes the day’s living.

In fact, I am talking about our grandparents. After my beloved grandparents died I turned my affection towards my husband’s grandparents, who, like mine, were good people with holy and righteous souls.

I think grandparents, wherever they are or live, are the same. Love and respect for grandparents everywhere should be similar to ours.

Grandparents …

I’m talking about those people who have grown generations and generations, who have lived long enough to be able to tell storied to the grandchildren with longing and passion for those gray times.

Those people who knew the true meaning of the word „work”, working from dawn to night, without pause and fatigue, together for family and well-being.

Those dear souls who dedicated their lives to work in the country, who loved the work and the riches of the earth given from the God to their last breath.

Those who spent decades at each other’s arm, enjoying together good days and bad days. Those people who did not say goodbye after the first fight, but who shyly smiled after a few moments of silence, shook their arms and continued the journey of life as a whole.

Those people who enjoyed the first cup of coffee on the brink of the morning, sipping uneasily and discussing together about family, neighbors and life.

Those who have not been estranged from their marriage for years, have proved that as a Phoenix bird, marriage must come back to life at all times, despite all the unfavorable circumstances.

Those people who loved the Church and the word of the Lord, who followed the rules of the village group, fasting whole fastings, loving life without sin.

A few good-bye words …

Yesterday I drove a person dear to me and my family, my husband grandmother on the last road. A gentle, calm and calculated woman, a woman who loves family and good people, a wonderful woman.

Heaven wept for her departure from this world, warming the whole village in a sea of ​​cold and acid tears. People from the village, relatives, friends and acquaintances all gathered to take us on the last road our grandma, as we know or dear Aurica.

She went to be with the one she loved all her life, with the partner she spent her whole life with. Step by step, prayer by prayer, we went to the place of eternity, as usual in a cart drawn by horses, through mud and unpaved road.

Although the world was screaming and crying for her departure, Grandma would no longer respond as before, with her body immobilized and hard, trapped in the wooden coffin. Only the sky was responding to the reactions of those around her, wiping hot  and longing tears.

Now the family is poorer without the two beloved members, grandmother and grandfather. There will be no one at the country who will meet us at the gate with the words: „Hey, my dear nephews” or „Grandma’s babies”. No one will make us chicken soup as only my grandmother knew how to make, steak or other goodies.

They will remain in our souls and in our memory, those two wonderful people who made our childhood more beautiful, who taught us and brought us on the right path in life. At the end of the day we are thankful to the Lord that he enriched our lives with such beautiful people, we were fortunate that we had them.

Goodbye, dear souls! Rest in peace!

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