Letter to the subconscious

Why are you afraid, dear subconscious? Why are you so scared to be yourself, to believe in yourself, to thrive? Do you not know that you hold the supreme power and that without you I am nothing? Why do you always tend towards negativism and do not see the positive side?

I tried these days to do an exercise and it surprised me, but not for good. I could never believe that inside you can be so dark, so scared of change and so focused on being and becoming nothing.

Why do you want everything to happen as the wind welcomes and to let yourself worn like a dry leaf from the cold wind? Do you not know that you hold the power and that together we can be unbeatable?

But you, subconscious are different from me at present. You are a shy and hidden character who does not trust and shudder at the first threat from outside, if you could you would take me into nothingness and you would never return.

Do you not know that always, together we have achieved things that only seemed real in a dream? Do you remember when we used to float over reality and embrace the present as a gift from God?

To be honest, I don’t even know when you’ve changed me so much, dear subconscious. You have become a side of mine so dark and closed that sometimes it is difficult for me to identify you, it is difficult for me to listen to you in solitude.

It is said that we attract what we think and that you, subconscious, have infinite power in attracting things to become reality. Why do you want to bring me only sadness and negative things? Why do you want to torment us in the near future?

Yes, I made mistakes and yes God knows how much I have struggled so far to get here. Some struggles have been given by God, some we have created by taking our lives in our hands.

Sometimes the true struggles must be waged by God, not by us. And we, dear subconscious, have much to learn from this parable.

Let’s stop fighting windmills and ask for guidance from Him. Come to realize that we are not alone in this cold world and that we have unlimited help, all we have to do is believe.

The things that are given to us by God to happen, will happen to us, the possible ones will materialize in time depending on what we attract to happen. Let’s not dream about impossible things because in time, we can hurt the soul of other people in our selfishness and absurd desire, for the moment.

Today I propose to make a pact, dear subconscious. Let’s choose the right path for us, eliminate negativism and gloomy thoughts, look to the future with hope and confidence.

Let us propose realistic or even unrealistic ideals but with the aim of never taking for granted or thinking selfishly about the people given by God at that time. To have a pure soul, and to think with the heart when we make decisions that could affect our life for a long term.

Because only together we can make a difference and change our life and future in just one second. Let’s be a team again and work together like we never did!

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What about today?

I have been so caught up in this crazy routine, one day after another that now when it tends to calm down I am scared. Don’t get me wrong, I enjoy the fact that it has slowed down the rhythm but it’s just that I am not used to it.

So today, besides home chores and work I believe I will just do things in a more rational way, now that I am well rested and have energy. After all, if I cannot do great things, I will do smaller things in a great way.

And live the moment.

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Don’t I get to have a saying in this?

I don’t know about you guys, but for me it has been a long week, starting from Sunday.

 You know that moment when you leave from home but you have no idea when you are returning? When your so glad that you arrived at home but still have chores to do and end up getting in the bed late? When the phone rings in the morning the same awful tune, all over again? Well for me whole week it has been like this.

Don’t get me wrong, I do love my work, even if sometimes is getting too hard to manage the load of tasks. I try my best to do the best I can in a few hours so that I could be happy of my results and so the company.

I also love my lovely family, for which I try to do the best to keep it happy and together, despite the odd circumstances, for better and for worse.

I try to put heart in everything that I do, even if sometimes I should not get involved so much in simple tasks, even if people advise me not to do that. I believe this is the way I am built and a little bit of passion and heart in every single task is not too much.

But sometimes I believe it is time to put a stop to it and refresh the session. Like, get a little time for myself and recover the energy tank, until it will not get empty. And you know also when you make plans and life gets ahead of you?

Yeah, in the past few months I felt like life made a lot of decisions without asking me. I feel like my happy emotions and feelings got away on a big vacation and I am left with the sad ones. Just like in the animation movie Inside Out.

Today a loved person from my family passed away, went in heaven to be with the angels. The funny thing is that I have planned to rest during the weekend and I have never thought even for a second that something bad could actually happen.

I did not get the chance to feel sorry, to cry or to mourn the loss. I was at office, working again and again, speaking too much for a day, forgetting about me and reality. Lately I get the feeling that life is happening and I don’t get to say a word about it. Just accept it and move on. My only question is until when.

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Autumn feelings mixed up with random thoughts

Friday, September 27th. The day when autumn is persistent in the soul and outside. One can clearly feel the gradual drop in temperature, the summer season giving way to the crumbling autumn.

I started the week on Monday, but I have no exact notion that can prove the passage of time, at least, I didn’t feel it. Day by day, hour by hour, being caught up in the same activity that seems to continue forever.

Every day has the same nuances, the same vague happenings, the same hours spent in the hourglass. With eyes stuck in the monitor, paying attention to clients and their special needs, explaining in another language abstract and precise notions related to the IT area.

It is said that time goes by quickly when what you do is pleasing to you, but can it do it endlessly? Hm, maybe I just got bored, doing the same monotonous activity every day, speaking the same meaningless words as a programmed robot.

The home is cold. As if it had lost its charm since the last unfavorable family event, it seemed to stop shining. Gray and unintelligible dreams make their way through the subconscious, awakening my senses but without any meaning, leaving me cold and confused.

Ineffable desires and random ideas

I wish I could close my eyes and escape from this cruel reality, which practically draws life away from me, drop by drop. I wish I could regain my joy beforehand, to see the spark of happiness in every smile.

I would like to enjoy again the „curtain” of safety and joy displayed on the faces of the known persons. I would like to go back to my childhood, where I did not know about falsity and cowardice, arrogance and lack of common sense, where everything seemed perfect, in a world full of imperfections.

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Wishes, wishes and wishes, which of course will never be fulfilled. The world is false, it wears masks and it is hidden. On the one hand they wants to enter into your soul, revealing the secrets you have gathered for a lifetime, and on the other they turn their back and laugh at your own suffering.

It is said that it is best not to show yourself to the world, to be indifferent and apathetic. Attributes such as naivety, childhood, indecision have nothing to do with our dictionary. But how can you hide something that is part of us? You can’t mask a good soul.

The world will never stop uselessly analyzing and commenting on situations and unknown people without the knowledge of the cause. At the end of the day it is important to become aware of what is inside you, the qualities and what made you become the man you are today.

A quote says: „At the bad worker during fall the heart cries” I believe that the bad workers are represented by the false world and the heart and the fall are in fact the broken souls in the process. And as the leaves decompose during the migration from autumn to winter, so will the world at some point in life, destroyed by its own deeds.

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Goodbye, pure soul!

I used to dream about you. I used to picture myself how would life look with your powerful presence in it. I wanted you so bad that I could not picture life without you. How could you just leave? Why did you left me alone?

I wished to meet you so bad that I even scheduled an appointment with the doctor sooner than expected. I was so delighted of the thought that I am going to see you for the first time, I cannot even describe in words the feeling.

But then, in the darkest moment of the earth, by an unknown cause your heart decided to stop beating, and you stopped growing. A few days ago I could feel you developing and starting to catch life and shape within me, and now you just have to go, without a reason or cause.

How come you did not wanted me to see you? Why did you decided to leave so soon?

We were so happy that you are going to arrive, that we even started making plans for our future together. We started imagining a better life, a responsible life with a new joyful member in it. But you decided to leave us… .

Looking back at the memories built related to your arrival, at the plans and at the happiness involved at that time I just wish we could stop that moment and live in it forever.

Now, the present is empty and sad without you. I see the clothes prepared for you, the small little toys, the changes that we made in our home and soul, but I don’t see or feel you anymore.

I just wish that for a moment the pain will stop and the tears will simply evaporate in the thin air. Everything that I can feel is sadness and nothing seems to be worth a value  without you anymore.

But I pray for you, dear and lovely soul and I wish that you could be happy in the heaven with other pure souls. And I also like you to know that I loved you more than life itself even if you decided to leave us.

How to keep calm in stressful situations

Lately, the situations around me have been extremely stressful both at work and at home. So, in a short time, I came to become from a calm and extremely patient person, to an agitated one, anxious and ready to attack in the second two.

Now, since it is Saturday, a day of relaxation and rest before next week before Easter, I set out to make a change. I will focus on changing behaviors and reducing the vibrant stress that set in the last period.

Today I want to share with you, my dear readers, some of the methods I want to address in avoiding stress and keeping more calm as I possible can.

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What is stress?

Dex define: STRESS, stresses, (Med.) General term used for any environmental factor (trauma, emotion, cold, heat, etc.) capable of causing a state of tension and a reaction to the human, sometimes causing serious illnesses; p. ext. an unfavorable effect on the body of the beings by an environmental factor.

How to keep calm in stressful situations?

The fact that we are in a constant hurry to quench our energy. Work, everyday routine and unexpected situations make our patience and calm to the test, overwhelming us. Therefore, several important steps that we must follow in this case are:

Breathe and Expire. Breathe and expire deep 5 times. Imagine how all the tension disappears from your body after each expiration and smiles.
Relax. After the breath / expiration process, analyze your body and identify exactly which areas are embedded and tense. Slowly massage the affected areas and imagine yourself in a place that could calm you down: at the beach, in the mountains or even in a hot tub with water.
Do not get attached, just give up. As strange as it may seem, giving up a stressful situation is very often, indicated. Stressing and worrying will not improve the situation because you are already involved in the act. So keep your head up and give up, simply say No.
If you have a great goal, divide it into small successes. Always focusing on the end result can become exhausting because it takes a lot of time and patience. Stop focusing on negative thoughts. Being able to give you positive feedback will help you grow in patience, courage and find more joy in fulfilling a goal.
What would someone else do in this situation? Another way to avoid stress is to imagine what another person would do in this situation. Just ask yourself, what would „Z” do in this situation? „Z” can be anyone, your favorite hero from the last book read, the character most adored from a movie or even at some point in your life. Because „YOU” are strong.
Look at the picture as a whole. When you find yourself in a stressful situation, stop, breathe deeply. Ask yourself if you lose your temper now, this will still matter: next week, next month, over the next 10 years? The answer, you know it too, I know it, it will not matter to you! What’s the point of agonizing in a passenger pain that we probably will not remember next week?
Do not ask for the impossible! No one is perfect and it’s okay. Perfection has never existed, nor will it exist. Asking perfection from a person and even from you is stressful and impossible.
Put your patience to the test every day. You may be laughing because every day patience is being challenged by external factors. Why would we try to gamble with our luck? The answer is simple. As we practice, our patience will become more malleable and we will be able to react differently to the unknown, without stress and nerves, only with calm and perseverance.
Be present in TODAY. When you have many things to do and need to be active 24/24, both at work and at home, do not overstretch your thoughts and energy on tomorrow. You live today, you are present today in the actions today and that’s it. Because tomorrow will come anyway, and it does not make sense to think today for tomorrow and tomorrow for today.
Take care of yourself, and listen to your thoughts frequently. Around us, we are attacked everywhere in every direction, and in some cases there is no one around to give us the sense of comfort and safety. Plan more to take care of yourself. Respect your thoughts and desires, love yourself. If you love yourself enough then other persons will do it too.

Remember, dear reader, you are the sky… the rest of the things that are happening are only part of the weather.

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Gandul zilei #21/ Thought of the day #21

Astazi este miercuri. Din nou, doar ca parca saptamana asta are un mod de a fi mai pasagera decat cealalta saptamana. Simt mai putin apasatoare orele petrecute la munca si acasa, am impresia ca parca ieri ar fi fost luni si astazi, iata, e miercuri.

Singurul lucru care nu se schimba este ploaia ce pare a fi din ce in ce mai deasa si mai rece. In ultima vreme tind sa cred ca vremea este prielnica vampirilor, nu tu soare, nu tu caldura… doar ploaie marunta, vant si frig.

Nu mai am energie, nu imi mai doresc sa zambesc, nu mai vreau sa fiu prietenoasa, ci sa fiu serioasa cu mine si cei din jur. Imi doresc doar sa imi inchid emotiile intr-o geaca groasa de iarna si sa inchid ochii. Sa meditez la necunoscut si inevitabil.

Astazi nu am inspiratie, dragi cititori, nu stiu ce as putea sa va spun. Imi doresc doar ca aceasta saptamana sa ia sfarsit si monotonia gri de semi-toamna de aprilie sa se blocheze pe undeva, printr-un alt univers paralel.

English Version

Today is Wednesday. Again, just like this week has a way to be more comfortable than the other week. I feel less pressing about the hours spent at work and at home, I feel like yesterday it was Monday and today, here it is Wednesday.

The only thing that does not change is the rain that seems to be getting thicker and colder. Lately, I tend to think the weather is more convenient for vampires, there is no sun, no warmth … just heavy rain, wind and cold.

I do not have any more energy, I do not want to smile anymore, I do not want to be friendly, but be serious about myself and others. I just want to close my emotions in a thick winter jacket and close my eyes. Let me meditate on the unknown and inevitably.

Today I have no inspiration, dear readers, I do not know what I could tell you. I just want this week to end and gray monotony of the April autumn semi-fall blocking somewhere through another parallel universe.

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