It all started with the dawn of the day, at that moment when the doctor informed Kate that she has an illness that needs to be cured and has to be hospitalized. Unfortunately, no medicine could cure her of the disease and only surgery will help.
Kate knew at that moment that she had to pay for her sins and at that moment the surgery was her punishment. Even if she had been punished before, the last surgery was just a reminder that no new steps could be taken further into the relationship.
No matter how hard she could have tried, God wanted another future for her and she was not destined for those people, she was not meant to be there in the first place. Now Kate was scared to take another step forward as she knew that God will not allow what is against nature.
She knew in her heart that she had chosen a man that was not in her destiny and wanted to repel, to change the present. Everything was in the right place and God has given her signals that she has to be too. Kate knew in her mind that a change was required but she just could not find a way to exit this present, she needed an answer.
All that Kate had were questions. New questions appeared all of the blue but she could not find a way to respond to them. All she felt was the numb pain and the harsh reality that she cannot avoid.
Now she is stuck in the present where she can not say anything and she can not move further as ties are deeply knotted and it is hard to untie them. Kate is aware that it is her fault and everything was caused by her but how could she move on, how could she eventually find the correct answer?
But ultimately surgery is a step forward. A treatment that could heal her of the pain and give her hope, maybe answers that she had been looking for a long time. Yes, pain and grief were included in the package but she knew she had to endure to proceed further.
Now Kate has high hopes, as every human will. She is hoping that the undetermined relationship will end and her man will find true love, that she will receive a new good job offer and she will leave the country in a few months.
But she is not able to skip chapters from the book and she has to wait and see what will happen further, waiting in the line for the new future. Until then she has to pray, work harder than she ever did, to endure the pain and hide the tears.
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