Song of the day #126

Unexpected sadness

You know that moment when you are going on with your life normally? When even if quarantined, you are trying to keep yourself positive and attempting to keep happy and motivated, having good thoughts? And then the world simply falls on your back?

That’s how I feel now.

There are some people in our family circle, that we don’t regularly speak with, some people that chose to stay hidden and live in their small little universe. Those people that deep down you love, and they know it but saying it out loud will not make any difference, for you or them.

But anyway, you are happy knowing that they are fine and feel comforted at the thought that nothing bad is going to happen to them. Until the unexpected happens.

Memories are all the we have

They were the best two friends I could ask for, Costel and Elena. Sons of my mother’s brother, Costica, they were the two special members of my childhood. We did almost everything together, from playing in the yard to pick the apples in the autumn. We even did mud pies together.

Unfortunately, my uncle was alone as his wife left him for another man and the two kids that resulted from their short love remained with him. So, he struggled, as he could to raise the two children, Costel and Elena on his own.

Life was not easy with my uncle as he struggled as he could to work and to bring money on the table. We lived in the same courtyard, but in different houses and always tried our best to help them as we could.

There were good times when my uncle managed to find a nice job and he was happy and brought joy to the kids. But then, there were also the worst moments when he lost the job and he was mean and most of the time scattered the anger on his kids.

And they, Costel and Elena could not do anything. They just sat in a corner of the room with tears in their eyes waiting for their father to calm down and for better times to come. When he was too angry he used to raise the voice at them and even beat them out.

My cousins had a tragic childhood that fortunately for me, I can’t relate to, as my parents were kind and understanding with me. Until 8 years old I grew up with them and shared joy and sorrow together, by comforting one another when bad moments arrived.

And then, after the age of 8 my father decided to move out in our own home. It was a new journey for us, but unfortunately a storm for the cousins. In time, my parents used to invite them to our new home but they could only arrive for a short time, as the uncle found out and banned them from coming to us.

In the beginning, it was hard to imagine a childhood without them, being my best buddies and basically, the two familiar figures that I grew up with. I missed them a lot after that and tried to find new friends.

I could indeed, identify new friends in the meantime but they were not like them. Their kindness and sincerity were hard to find, and real friends don’t just appear out of the blue.

In time though, things changed a lot, I did for sure. And time flew away so fast that I could not even think. Costel and Elena finished school, unfortunately only the first mandatory classes because nobody was able to support them fully.

Elena got married and now she is happy at her home with 3 kids. Costel, unfortunately in his case the situation is different. He ended up performing the heavy works that his body could not sustain and because of the depression and sorrow from his father became an alcoholic.

The sad reality

Last year, on the same day, my uncle died. Today, his son Costel, died as well.
I have just received the bad news from my family. But it’s hard to process it and to think about it, because he was young, only 24. His friends found him dead in the house without any traces or evidence. Then the cops arrived and an investigation is currently conducted.

We don’t know yet if its the Virus or if it’s the other health issues that Costel managed to somehow get during his short lifetime. But I feel sad that I cannot be with him on his last journey as only 8 persons are allowed to go to the funeral, the situation being very strict with the lockdown and everything.

I am still trying to process the information and cannot believe that this happened. He was a good guy and always helped out persons in need, always being there when asked to.

I hope that God will take care of him in heaven and that he will be more at peace than here, on earth, where he had to struggle with his life. Rest in peace, dear soul! 😥

(Image Source – Unsplash,

The Remembrance of the good done those we have loved is the only consolation when we have lost them.” – Demoustier

Awesome Blogger Award

Hello, my dearest ones! Since I have taken a break for two weeks, I have been nominated for a few awards. One, it was the Sunshine Award and the second, was the Awesome Blogger Award.

The post was made on 13 April, and I am replying on 23 April, with a delay (Unfortunately). I feel like a bad child that didn’t do her homework 😆.

I have been nominated by the blogger „The truth, freethinker„, a really awesome blogger with amazing blog posts about the mind and inspiration to boost your self-confidence. Did I make you curious? If yes, check out the page and get motivated! 

Rules of the game:

  1. Thank the person who nominated you.
  2. Tag the post with #awesomebloggeraward.
  3. Answer the questions you were asked.
  4. Nominate at least five bloggers and inform them of their nomination.
  5. Give them ten new questions to answer.

Responding to the Free Thinker’s Questions:

  1. What is your favorite book?

My favorite book of all time would be The Secret by Rhonda Byrme. I feel like it catches all the essence of life in the rows written within, it gives you power and hope.

2. Why do you blog?

Because I love to write! I had a strange passion since childhood to write and the passion simply grew in time. The only difference is that now numerous other people get to enjoy my works.

3. What is your view about life?

“There are a dozen views about everything until you know the answer. Then there’s never more than one.”
― C.S. Lewis, That Hideous Strength

4. Has blogging helped you in any way?

Yes, like in a thousand ways. The blog has given me the change to develop myself, to write, and to discover new information, new people, and new horizons. Recently, I also discovered that WordPress and blog writing can contribute to my CV consistently. 

5. What makes you feel accomplished?

The journey that I have taken until now, the numerous steps that I had to take to arrive in the present. Being myself mostly.

6. What are your hobbies?

Blogging, drawing, watching Korean series, cooking, jogging, helping when needed.

7. If you could pick a legacy to leave behind, what would it be?

Carve your name on hearts, not tombstones. A legacy is etched into the minds of others and the stories they share about you. —Shannon Adler

8. What do you hate most about life?

Where do I begin 😂? There are a lot of things that can annoy me in this life, but in the end I focus on the things that I love, and that makes things easier to bear.

9.What do you love to talk about?

For those who know me, I am a very social person and talk a lot. My latest subject is about the Korean Dramas, of course.

10. Have you ever thought of deleting your blog?

I had some thoughts in the past of removing the blog, back when I was volunteering for an SEO Company. But in time I discovered that I don’t want my hard work and my articles to vanish. It’s been years behind and I do have a story to tell through this blog. So the definitive answer for now is: NO.

My special nominee’s are:

My questions for them:

  1. What was the trigger that determined you to start blogging?
  2. What is your favorite brand of coffee/tea? Share with examples.
  3. What is the most amazing book you ever read?
  4. Do you like exercising? If yes, what are you favorite exercises?
  5. What is the most beautiful memory you can think of?
  6. Name a place you would like to visit.
  7. Do you have a crush?
  8. Do you think it’s important to spend money on video games?
  9. What are your 3 life rules?
  10. Name the craziest thing that you have did in this life.

In the end I would like to say thank you to the Free Thinker for nominating me for the prize and for allowing me to share with other bloggers. I am looking forward to read the answers of my chosen special bloggers!

Take care and stay safe! 😇🌹