Song of the day #78

Don’t I get to have a saying in this?

I don’t know about you guys, but for me it has been a long week, starting from Sunday.

 You know that moment when you leave from home but you have no idea when you are returning? When your so glad that you arrived at home but still have chores to do and end up getting in the bed late? When the phone rings in the morning the same awful tune, all over again? Well for me whole week it has been like this.

Don’t get me wrong, I do love my work, even if sometimes is getting too hard to manage the load of tasks. I try my best to do the best I can in a few hours so that I could be happy of my results and so the company.

I also love my lovely family, for which I try to do the best to keep it happy and together, despite the odd circumstances, for better and for worse.

I try to put heart in everything that I do, even if sometimes I should not get involved so much in simple tasks, even if people advise me not to do that. I believe this is the way I am built and a little bit of passion and heart in every single task is not too much.

But sometimes I believe it is time to put a stop to it and refresh the session. Like, get a little time for myself and recover the energy tank, until it will not get empty. And you know also when you make plans and life gets ahead of you?

Yeah, in the past few months I felt like life made a lot of decisions without asking me. I feel like my happy emotions and feelings got away on a big vacation and I am left with the sad ones. Just like in the animation movie Inside Out.

Today a loved person from my family passed away, went in heaven to be with the angels. The funny thing is that I have planned to rest during the weekend and I have never thought even for a second that something bad could actually happen.

I did not get the chance to feel sorry, to cry or to mourn the loss. I was at office, working again and again, speaking too much for a day, forgetting about me and reality. Lately I get the feeling that life is happening and I don’t get to say a word about it. Just accept it and move on. My only question is until when.

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